Yesterday Sumit was arguing with me about how I am so fickle minded and impulsive. The argument spawned off from me not having left the house all day because I was job hunting and did not feel any motivation to leave the couch. This usually spirals into a depressing session of self loathing, sarcasm, complete indifference and impulsive statements.
So many people told me "oh you are quitting your job, thats so wonderful! Now you can do all the things you wanted to do but never had time for." Thats not really true. When you have all the time in the world but no work it also means you have no money to spend on whims and fancies. So you try to do whatever you can with the resources in hand. One morning I am studying Arabic and on another morning I am looking through GRE questions. One day I am resolved to finish my video journal while another I am just in the mood to watch sitcoms. Somehow nothing seems to engage me long enough. Maybe because these arent meant to be full time activities.
Its not my fault that I am stuck in a country where medical research is unheard of. Doctors find it amusing that they have to look at things beyond jus treating their patients. There is jus so much money thrown around that they can just buy an existing research facility instead of bothering with it.